So about a year and a half ago someone told me something that kind of shocked me and stuck to me.
I eat like I don’t want to live.
So there are a few theories on how this came about.
The first is my metabolism. I am one of those people that can eat what they want and never gain weight. Now some of you might think that this is awesome, and in a way it is, but it backfires on me in two specific ways. One: I can’t change the way I look, good or bad. Two: There is no physical indicator that I have an awful diet. My body does not change to show the horrendous amounts of neglect it receives on a daily basis. Can you ‘receive’ neglect? Is that a thing? Anyway…
The second contributor to my poor health is that I was, at no point, shown how to eat healthy. Yes I was fed healthy when I was growing up, for the most part. Yes I took a cooking course in high school. Yes we all learned nutrition in school. But none of this really gave me the “this is how you need to eat to feel good” info I felt I needed. A lot of people TALKED about eating well. ButI didn’t have anyone SHOW me. Some genius, right?
And finally, I hate eating. That’s right. I hate eating. I think it’s uncomfortable, embarrassing, and time consuming. Like crawling on my hands and knees. I just feel… awkward. I think that’s the best word for it. Awkward. Now don’t get me wrong, I still like the taste of most food. I even have favourite foods. Like bacon. But this to me is like having a favourite time you got your pants yanked down out of all the times it’s happened over the years. Yeah it’s your favourite but it’s still something you would rather not have to deal with. So that’s how I feel about eating in general. If I could find a way to never eat again, I would. Ergo to save time and frustration I typically go for easy and fast food so as to not waste any time. And that’s not good for me.
So what’s the solution? Well, despite my hate of eating and lack of physical indicators on when I start eating too unhealthily, I need to pay more attention to my health and take better care of myself. I’m not immortal (yet) and I need to show my body some respect if I want to live comfortably. Or at the very least, if I want to reduce the amount of annual E.R. visits.
Seriously I should get a punch card. Get some kinda prize or something…